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It's a trust thing.
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It's a trust thing. Betrayal of trust is something that, in a very unrealistic point of view, means something more to me than anyone in the world. It's a vain statement. A egotistical statement. A phrase I came up with to describe other people, a myopic narcissistic statement. But at the moment, it describes me. Right now, as typing this, trying to comprehend to what degree I feel betrayed. trying to deal with a hurt, a anger, that not sure I've ever felt. For the first time in over 30 , looking for a reason to hit someone. Anyone. No regards for whether I win or lose. just like when I was a young, irresponsible idiot, who had no care of the outcome. Didn't plan on living forever anyway. I'd almost relish the feeling of getting hit right now, just to feel a pain that was physical, not mental. enough now, maybe wise enough, to just lock myself away. Physically and emotionally. No danger to myself, or anyone else. And with some more wine, the never ending tick of time, and the help of some friends, it will pass. Trust and honesty, is to me, more important than breathing. It is the one thing that binds me to my world. When it's broken by a lover, it hurts. When it's broken by someone I love and care about, it's like nothing in the world exists. Nothing left is real. I will get through this, I always do. In the grand scheme of things, it's probably no where near as bad as it seems at the moment. But as you might have noticed...it is affecting me. Betrayal of trust, is never a good thing... " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx |
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Sorry if this is "darker" than I usually post. It is , however, real ...it's another side of me. One that may not have been experienced in quite a while. And just for the record...it has nothing to do with anyone on this site. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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Young man, you just need to set back, take a minuet to reflect on the good things around you, another glass of wine may not be in best interest, think of the grander scheme of things. IT could be worse, you could be looking up at the roots of the grass, not the green side... Relax, think, think, have a moment with yourself... Stop by at lonlyforlove2 also see Lunch with Lonly , we get snow tomorrow Check my blog on New Community, "A photo of my big Pecker" also, " My Sunday afternoon with the kids'
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Don't hit a brick wall with your fist or head, IT hurts, and tomorrow it will hurt worse,,, been there done that.. Stop by at lonlyforlove2 also see Lunch with Lonly , we get snow tomorrow Check my blog on New Community, "A photo of my big Pecker" also, " My Sunday afternoon with the kids'
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it hurts...i feel it.. as if the heart is bleeding... you can't see it...but you can feel it...i know...i have been there...i am sorry...someone hurts you that much...it might feels like nothing matters..it was not your fault...but please...take care of yourself...one day at a time...you are gonna get though this...hang in there...
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come over to my live CAM, listen to some good music and vent at/with me, I am thick headed, an have a chat.. Stop by at lonlyforlove2 also see Lunch with Lonly , we get snow tomorrow Check my blog on New Community, "A photo of my big Pecker" also, " My Sunday afternoon with the kids'
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Trust - fragile and precious. Once broken, it's difficult to repair. Once broken, it's difficult to offer to someone else. Opportunity may knock only once, but temptation bangs on the door forever!
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Trust - fragile and precious. Once broken, it's difficult to repair. Once broken, it's difficult to offer to someone else. Stop by at lonlyforlove2 also see Lunch with Lonly , we get snow tomorrow Check my blog on New Community, "A photo of my big Pecker" also, " My Sunday afternoon with the kids'
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Pagan  Hmmmm....I know I left that wand around here somewhere!
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It will get better. . Your kind spirit will see you through it.
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I am so sorry. The betrayal of trust by those that you love most in the world is a hurt that cuts deeper than anything else. I hope they understand how much this hurt you, and I hope that you all can find a way to work through this. Is there wood that needs chopping at your house? Or perhaps something needs fixin' that requires a hammer and lots and lots of nails?? Then you could hit stuff...and actually be productive...  "Sometimes the most productive thing you can do is relax." – Mark Black
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I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. A breach of trust is horrible and changes everything. Sometimes we can forgive but we will never forget. ~~Anais Nin~~
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So sorry to hear your going through this my friend and sometimes you just have to take a step and look at the big picture. I know it's hard especially when someone has betrayed your trust. I hope things get better for you.. Seduce the mind and see what a wonderful adventure the body will take you on.. 
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Trust in my book is  nce you violate it it's gone. I realize this is tough because it involves family. The link now has a major dent in it. I really feel for you- I do not have children but I personally highly value honesty and if my child lied to me, it would be very difficult to trust again(Virtual Symposium Group) use Virtual Symposium Group
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